Tears;im in pain

My cousin is the attorney for that guy who wants to take care of his brain-damaged wife. Big news on HOME section, and a constant news report on teevee. He's a darn good lawyer for 'family affairs'. Kinda shocked to see him on news taking up this case.

Tom won Survivor Palau. Step is my favourite though. =)) I see myself as an athlete like her..i would have played the game like she did.

Finally, my computer's working. I have a feeling it'll die once i click on 'shut down'. Will take this time to upload all my pics. It's raining now. Gloomy and cold...where's my sun? Lovely day to read my novel, but have to look for job with Tirene later!!! And school's starting in a couple of month..scary.

Anyway, i was so suicidal last night i nearly jumped off 13th storeys. The hurt and pain in my heart was enough to 'numb' the pain of jumping off a high bldg. Stupid right? I know. But really, maybe killing myself will wake Mum up. I almost hate her so much last night that i'll never say i love her again. I want her life to be filled with remorse and regret. Then, i thought of my God-ma, Dad, Sisters and those who loved me so much. How can i bear to leave you all in tears..

Really thankful dirtyboy was on the line with me;
for 2 hours
for listening to my horrible sobbing
for trying to make out what i was saying inbetween sobs
for pulling me back
for trying to cheer me up
for making me feel so loved
for making me feel important
for making me live and believe

Without you, i might be dead. And become the worst sinner ever. I love you so much darling.

Mum was drank. My family's so disfunctional. I dont feel as lucky anymore.