Dejected and abandoned..
 
Crying just makes everything seems worser.
i cried from 1230am till 0340am yesterday-
Seems ridiculous the moment i woke up.
It's just me, i think-
Forced them back into the duct,
again, again and again. 

I've decided to back out of Nationals 04'. Im not prepared, i dont wanna run a race without any aim. Blame it on my lack of discipline to train or bad time-management. I needa get down to my studies instead of making my legs run till they cry out loud. I need support from you all to back up my confirmation. Especially thank Vinay for his words. I won't look back and regret i guess, though many athletes die to be a part of Nationals.
 
Stabs myself HARD..HARDER..HARDEST!!!