weather report - gloomy / hazy

im not really sorry i blew up on my godbro during lunch, he was really a pain in my arse.

every lil thing that irritates me just makes me feel like crying.

i fight hard to pull back those tears.

and godma is so irritating too!!! nag nag nag talk talk talk repeat repeat repeat. args. i couldnt sleep one night without hearing her voice. she wakes up at 4am. imagine!

im suppose to be resting for this trip BUT i feel even more tired than the bangkok and melbourne trip, combined!

yes, emotional roller coaster ride. i dunno why.

and i dont wanna wait till godma's gone before regretting how im feeling right now.

peace. i need it. i do.

and i was so desperate for "me" time i went back to hotel after breakfast.

i guess i really do like to be alone.

finished watching THE NOTEBOOK for the millionth time.

god it is a beautiful show.

yes it is.

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yesternight was terrible.

RM70 was gone in a flash at the money wheel.

nice to watch. entertaining. but losing the money was no joke.

wont be entering the casino today.

god-family is hitting the casino after every meal.

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args, whats wrong with me man!!

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ok, its not always about keeping the balance as i've said.

my undies do not have to match with my bras all the time right?

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i've a zillion things to settle. yes one at a time.

but im not those sort who will handle things one at the time, one day after the next.

i like to rush them, do it well and move on to the next task within the same day.

then afterwards, feeling a sense of completion, like a nice closure.

clear everything behind my mind so that i can sleep well.

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you know. there're some people out there who'll never get fat.

and they go around telling the whole world they're always hungry and looking for food.

why do i get the impression they're just showing off??

alot of girls out there do just that.

im getting grumpy over it for dunno what reason!

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Melly -> dying to be home :(

Amber -> hahaha, sorry. very anxious about seeing you *grins* seeya soon love!

Jerr -> actually, a good novel and a glass of warm milk is my ultimate before-bed combination (: just want you to know you gotta think before you speak man, else you're going down. thats the same advice i give to myself. whats offensive to others might not be to you. dont worry, i still love you. hah.