Day 7

Am much better already (:
Tirene and Tisha popped by after work with Callie to visit me..
Am thankful for such good friends..xoxo

Can't wait for follow up with Dr Phoon tmr..
Opening 'rubber' ceremony!

Feeling rather hungry..
No solid food, no strength, lost 4kg, look frail and weak.
But spirits are up!

God is good (:

Kim -> thanks!

Amber -> thank you so so much babe..for sitting by my bed side..am feeling better already, dont inconvenience yourself by paying me a visit..hehe..we meet when u have term break or something. I should be more fit by then (:

Melly -> yes buy me all my favourite food..i'll gobble them up!

Angele -> hi babe!! thank you for praying..without our Father, this op wouldn't've been a success (:

Grace -> i didnt know i'll be so brave so to go through this crazy surgery. i'll rest well so that we can meet up soon! :b

Orthognathic surgery

21st sept 09:

admitted into CGH with the company of my mum and elder sis for my Oral & maxillofacial surgery (is universally recognized as a one of the nine specialties of dentistry where my jaw bones will be cut/fractured and re-aligned, held in place with either screws or plates and screws). Super lucky to get an A class ward as it was Hari Raya and most patients have been discharged. Jasmine came by in the evening to company me watch teevee. We had fries! Hard time falling asleep so Faith companied me over the phone for an hour. I was damn scared! Doctor came to put in my IV line in the afternoon..i freaked out because it was very painful. As the night went by, nurses came to check my vital signs and blood pressure. Super annoying as i was trying to get some sleep. I think i slept for an hour? Not good.

22nd sept 09:

9am. my surgery was scheduled the first that day. Was being pushed down to OR7 at 8am. I saw nothing but lights and more lights above me. The nurses did some pre-op checks and attached me to machines etc. Doctor came, put me to sleep. The feeling was very weird. Within 8 seconds i was knocked out. But prior to that, i couldnt really breathe. So if you ask me, having GA is like sending yourself to hell. Think my body didnt response too well to it. I woke up at about 5.30pm having difficulties in breathing. They gave me 4 litres of oxygen and monitored me for an hour while they transfused blood back to my body. The nurses were very nice, gave me water very patiently. Surgeon came to tell me that the op went very well. I was so so so scared. Had i known how horrible this would be, i would have never ever signed myself for this op. Told them to call my parents who were waiting. By 6.30pm, i saw them. I was holding onto their hands for my dear life. I felt so lousy and scared i was crying buckets. Why in the world did i put myself through this? It was indeed the worst period of my life.

Faith and Amber came to visit me. Just by sitting quietly on my bedside, i felt really comforted. I needed all the encouragement and care. I thought i won't be able to make it. Thank you so much my dearest friends. It meant a lot a lot to me. My lil sis slept over that night to keep watch over me. I was having some trouble breathing. Bleeding through the nose, the numb-ness at the back of my head and cheeks were causing me discomfort. Some stupid nurse came in to take blood samples at the middle of the night. She couldnt locate the veins and i was poked twice, till i cried. Next morning, i told the doctors i didnt want to get poked anymore and they were kind enough to let me pass.

Had fever post-op. Drinking medicine using the stringe was a slow and tiring process. Nurses were very patient in feeding me. Swallowing was a nightmare since i am required to adhere to an all-liquid diet for 1 month at least.

Really thankful for my sister's company that night. I know it must be hard on her to sleep on the chair and keep watch on me, making sure i was comfortable. Parking at the hospital was so costly, my heartaches when they take turn to sleep over with me.

23rd Sept 2009:

Fever subsided and doctors said i can go home if i want. But mum insisted that i stay for another day of observation. Thankfully i stayed because i had drug allergy. My eyes were so swollen, i couldnt breathe and was forced to insert another IV line for medication. I was too weak to resist it. Damn. I was poked over 7 times, plasters all over my arms. Bloody medication was so bitter, its the worst medicine. Yucks. Antibiotics/painkillers were suppose to aid in recovery. But i think keeping my spirits up is a better medication.

Went down to see doctor, taught me how to clean my mouth and brush. Removed blood clots in my nostrils. Got my xtray taken. 4 titanium plates in my jaws now. No skiing in Korea? Sigh..
With support and care and love, i think i will try to pull through. Trying to clear my emails and outstanding work. Quite tiring.

Mum stayed over to take care of me and monitor in case i have more allergies. Managed to pull through the night so doctor discharged me. Mum wants me to stay one more night. Omg, i begged to go home.

24th Sept 2009:

Lil sis came to collect my medicine, bought my ENSURE milk formula. Caleb came to visit me. Went home at about 3pm. By then, i was feeling better but still lousy. Can't really speak and blood was running in my nostrils. Suffering. Moving around very slowly at home..almost like invalid? But taking lots of liquid frequently so that my body is hydrated. Can feel myself losing weight..kinda sucks because it'll get worst. My mind not too clear either..jaws and teeth all bounded and rubberized up..so its very restrictive.

If you read till here, congratulations.
I tend to drift off to sleep very suddenly after surgery..
Just feeling heavy cheeks down, numb everywhere. Slight discomfort.

Thank u chris, melly, dine, grace, jasmine, faith, amber, miss lim, sulin, Julia, Alfred, Yunhao, Jennifer, Luke, Uncle Michael and Eunice. And of course my parents and sisters for standing by me. It's indeed the worst of everything i've experienced so far and i'd love to erase this memory.

Thank you God..i know you are with me..

Frolick-ed

The countdown:

2 days..

Get Buttered Tonight

The bruises.
Largest one is behind the smiley face wrap.
Was given some Hirudoid cream for all the bruises.
Really hate having needles stuck into me.
Had to inject painkiller before giving my 2nd unit of blood today.
If not for the friendly nurses, i wouldn't've made it (:

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Buttered with Justina, Julia and Jun (:
We got 'attacked' by different guys..scary!!

Melly -> keep me in your prayers next week.. xo

Never Forgotten

After reading a friend's blog, i got pretty 'emotional'.
She was discussing whether there's a possibility of exs remaining as friends.
And honestly, till today, i can't answer that.

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You know the revenge game as well as i do.
I'm just trying to be a better person right now.
In school, we were taught to communicate, the importance of it all.
Right now, there might be just a hundred and one misunderstandings which i cannot be bothered to clear up.

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Am feeling very nervous about the surgery next week.
Other than the bruises on my arms and knees, my mind is pretty fucked up as well.
What am i afraid of right?
PAIN. thats what im afraid of.
PAIN.

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Melly -> xoxo (:

Happy birthday, Cheryl bestie (:

Evening out with my girlies (:

Pink Parlour with Melly before meeting Diney for dinner..we certainly adore BW dont we.
Each room has a stereo and best of all, they let you shower before waxing.
Excellent service and a cosy environment.
What not to love (:

Liz has been such a sweetie. She did my writeup for TEENAGE magazine (: (: (:
There's every reason to be smiling now..

Treasure what we have..

Nude Elf

Some people have been donating blood ever since they were eligible.
Some even made it to the hall of frame by donating more than 50 times.

It was the first, for me today (:

The needle was scary, made me extremely nervous but the nurses took good care of me throughout. While donors came and went off in a short time span of 15mins, i was on the bed for almost an hour. Being underweight and all, i experienced slight giddiness. Doctor even came to check on me, just to be doubly sure i'm eligible for 2nd unit next week.

Not that i was a willing donor but i had to (autologous) for my upcoming 6 hours surgery at CGH on the 22nd this month.

I'll suffer from a swollen face.
Liquid diet for at least 6 weeks.
Have urine pipe poked into me, all other needles and drips.
Fast the night before surgery.
Lose maybe 10kg.
Won't be able to talk or open my mouth for a while.
Most of all, i'll be in pain and low spirits.
How's that?

Before Grace got me all nervous about being mentally prepared, i was actually looking forward to a brand new 'bite', and of course if i look prettier after that, it will be a bonus. She said i'll be bleeding everywhere, look like puffer fish, cannot open mouth and will be in pain. Sounds scary :( But she has kindly agreed to visit me, post-op, to cheer me up and on. Very very nice friend..hehe (:

I guess my life will stop temporarily for now.
Hopefully i'll get enough rest to recover fully for Seoul/New Zealand trip.
Cannot imagine missing out on good food overseas. I've a huge appetite ok.
And definitely continue to make some money out of my livejournal and dotcom.

My right arm is still sore :(

Melly -> see you in 2 days! remb to print coupon and confirm a time/place with me prior to BW :b Dine shld be tagging along after her lesson..hehe

Euros & Pounds

@scrapztudio's 2nd bazaar at Raffles Town Club 11am-6pm.
Hope response will be as good as when it was at SMU (:

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31st Dec to 9th Jan Seoul trip.
Been yearning to travel.
Finally the chance to ski, enjoy some cold air and do some shopping.
Will kiss Faith and Boon Yew at 12 midnight..on the plane for countdown...GEES.
Cannot claim Kris miles for this trip..args. But promo was too good to miss (:

Kimmy -> you're damn right, i do need a warehouse :(