Yupz..got over her. How did i do it in a day?? The secret is that we hit it off better as just friends. Haha..im so disgusting!! *hugs myself*

Saw this advert from a email. This lil' boy was yelling like mad when his father refuse to buy sweets for him. The catch line of the advert was "USE CONDOMS". Fark...what kinda advert was that man?!

Studied with Edward...had fun. =) *winks* Esp when he tried explaining stuff to me..haha..couldnt stop laughing. Man..check out the way he teaches. *bleaghz*

Okie..so she likes someone else.

When i like someone, she never likes me back.
When i dont like someone, he/she always wants to me with me.
Things are not going my way.
Why should it go my way anyway??
Spastikk...

GP tutorial with Nana was funny..haha..she's hilarlous and innocent!!! No wonder Indran said that she's sweeeet..!!! *shakes butttt*

CT2 result slip is out..i made a huge improvement. *grinz*

Well, i saw her today..she talked to me while walking into school..then i saw her again at the toilet. We played a little..Man..im love-sick..someone slap me leh..

If i didnt tell you who that girl is, dont ask me, cause i wont tell. =) If you know, congrats, you're the few lucky ones i tell.

Oh...damned...she's so CUTE!!! *args*

At god-pa's place right now...im really afraid he might just.. -shrugs- im trying to keep that thought away..God will watch over him..im positive..i am..

Had breakfast with Edward..dont think anymore gossips gonna fly around. Cause if it does, you're seriously gonna end up hurting him..not me..i think..

Stop thinking you shitty shanice..

Trying to stay focus..

Happy birthday Mom...i love you so much. =)
You'll always look young and pretty to us. Hee.. =)

The play was good..i got to show them into the school cause Ms G told me, Shuyun and Nana to keep a look out for our guests!! haha..It wasnt really funny at some points, dont know how they can laugh so hard..hmmm

The Nicole Highway incident...man...i totally forgot to pray for the families and those working there!!! One of the family member have this part-time actress called Catherine Tan. God bless us all..

And Ms G..im feeling really terrible about what she told us today..7 tumors right?? Sheesh...i understand so much about the hospital shit..and all the things she's probably gonna go through. She's such a wonderful teacher..i love her so so much!! And today she actually let us eat like a monkey donkey during tutorial. The chicken kabub was good..is this how u spell it? =P

Everytime i tried to talk to Shuyun privately..haha...someone will come along..hmm..

Inspired to take belly-dancing..except i lack the fats needed to look good for dancing..

Man...PORN advert suddenly popped out of the school computer..sorry for the scream...will totally freaked + grossed out. How can guys stand those shit ass.. *faintz*

It came..it finally came.. *smiles*

Have you ever felt like you have a lot to revise yet not know where to start?
Simply because its laziness or your head's like farked up?

Have you ever felt like your love and kindness's not returned???
Like i've told Reney, offer your enemy your left cheek.

Have you left like giving up hope??
Only to see other's struggling to live?

Have you ever done something wrong??
Yet have no courage to say sorry?

Have you ever looked away??
Even when you know that the person wants you to badly look back at him/her?

Have you ever felt so helpless, you dont know where to draw strength from??
God's the answer..

God-pa's home after 33 days in hospital.
God-ma has learnt all about home nursing.
God-brother has to cope with the terrible hospital bills i saw.
Me, trying to handle all these and help God-ma.

Suddenly all my complainings and whinnings stopped. Just seems so insignificant compared to what they're going thru'. I don't really know how to help..

i really really really admire my God-ma, who's like 60+ of age and yet still able to cope with an old man. Private nursing home wasnt a good choice because of the distance and cost. If im working now, i'll definitely chip in financially. When i saw the hospital bill, i gasped and nearly died out of shock..

Well, i can't believe i cried while having tutorial with Ms G and Mrs Sim today. Yes..im stressed..very stressed in fact. The pressure behind my smiles..bet no one knew i cried..

That's why i think the presentation over at LT4 cracked me up and lightened my spirits. Good job guys..really liked it. It was the salvation of my day. =)

PE was boring as usual...spent my time racing with Tirene, Kian Zi and Marcus. Duh..the guys were obviously faster than me in sprinting. Hmm..God build guys this way i guess. Stressed to keep up standards..i've been slacking for track trainings. Haha...Track and Field family suddenly become so so so BIG. Im surprised. Which means i might not be the best anymore..haha..

Melly --> IM SO FARKING FARKED UP!!!

AGE OF INNOCENCE was okie i guess...acting MR van de luyden was cool..over-sized-begger coat on me...haha..Miss Thiang actually hit my buttt!!!! Man..

So i missed the house meeting...he settled the whole meeting on his own without me and Karic..hmm..i'll be running 6 events..may i faint that day. Notice there's no 3000m..let my juniors fight it out for themselves..decided im not gonna tire myself out..

Events:
1) 100m (new event for me)
2) 800m
3) 1500m
4) 4 x 100m
5) 4 x 400m
6) Medley

Args...missed American Idol cause mom was home and i have to be good and hardworking. Did George, John and Jasmine screw themselves up??? I hope so..haha..The OC today!!!!

Wah...im in a horrible mood these days..might just kill someone..Tirene and Shuyun also not in the best of moods..one day my thing dont come, one day i'll be pissed..i dont care if i yell at you, you know? Even if you're in my clique..hmm...havent happened so far, Tirene just think im crazy. Whats new..I wish Nana will die out of laughter one day..i always happen to crack her up, even if its the lamest and tasteless of jokes...hmmm..haha... *shakes buttttttttt*

So, i went for track AND squash on Tuesday. Haha..Green Tea wasnt there...

Please..i think if teachers wanna flash transparencies like lightnings, they should just tell us to go home and read notes ourselves. They can rest in their office without having lecture with us then. Make us copy and copy notes..PRINT for us!!! Hello..didnt those course that teachers go for, tell them that students only take 20% of what they teach, home with them?? Then still want us to multi-task by listening to them, refering to our notes and copying one whole chunk of shittass..oh man..felt like banging my hand on the table when that Ting lectured us...yes, we're suppose to read notes before hand, but dont even know whats she rumbling on about??? So fast can..

Yes..stay away before i slap you. Im pissed. Period.

Symphony of Voices 2004 (VJC choir concert) was great! Haha..enjoyed myself there with Faith, Geri and Serene. Saw a few SR people there. Hee..why can't our school's choir be as fantastic as theirs??? I miss those days whereby i join them for singing. PL choir still rox though. =) Yes, i can do choral singing okie..in case some of you think that i can only do sports..

Im so bloody TORTURED by kai kian. Why does he keep giving me work??!! I already sacrifice alot of my time for House stuff already lor. Now want me to find cheerleading peepz. HELLO!! im invloved with Sports' Day liao, so why can't you do the job since you're not participating in ANY events?? I love Draco, butthe thing is that there's always so much to do, sometimes i rather let the house die and not participate to win points for them. Hell..im human, i get tired?!

Fark, i want Jasmine out of Amercian Idol 3. Her voice doesnt stand out!! It's so common lor..she's still there because of her packaging. Guys, you agree with me right?? I miss JPL so much lar..he can sing lor...and whats John and George still doing there?? Haha..ok..im mean..love Fantasia, Jennifer and Latoya. =)

Wah, mum really not concerned about getting new computer..dad's not involving himself in it unless we need the money for downpayment. When's my new computer coming?!?!! To hell with viruses man..

School's been okie..nothing happening except that i really hate this farking person in class. STOP BEING A HYPOCRITE!! you have no right to say anything about others! You're one big fat piece of shit yourself! C'on, you dont fit means you dont fit. People hate you because you have a stinking attitude you outta get out of!! Args...

Went out with Maurice on Saturday night for a movie (Starsky & Hutch) at 11.20pm. Yes, reached home only at 1.45am. Mom grounded me but it's ok i guess. Maybe its worth it cause its the 1st time im seeing him since January! Dont really miss him cause we kinda drifted. But, in that short 3 hours or so, we kinda found ourselves back. Yes, i know what Tirene's thinking while reading this part. Yea..im probably downright naughty..

This is the thing:
Be an angel at home (at least try??).
Be a rebel in school.
Be havoc when you go clubbing.
Be a bitch when you're arguing.
Be naughty with you-know-what.
Be good and nice to the needy.
Be evil to people who deserves it.
Be honest with God.

Man..time to repent..God's calling out to me again..

Some of you might obviously not agree with the shit i've been crapping but oh well, its MY blog aint it?? I dont really have to be responsible for stuff i said.

Shuyun has been sick, on her way to recovery. Nana still laming away. Grace seems so into History all the time. Tirene is trying to fight her memory about something. Me, still the same.. =)

Melt --> Missy missy!! Haha..she's cute..i can't say too much cause people might spread the word around in school. I think being a L****** might be the route for me. Your influence!! haha...! =P When's your exams over?? Dying to talk and chill out with you!!! *whines*

Today got SMALLVILLE!!!! Please do watch it..haha..

Okie, came to school and ran like a mad dog for 2.4km run. Nobody wants to run with me..its quite sad actually..when they see me, they all ran off first. Hmmm..im not even like national standard lar..yes, dying to know my timing? It's bad. My personal best for the run used to be 10mins plus..now..haha..engine dying..

2.4 km --> 11.35mins
Shuttlerun --> 11.0s
Sit&reach --> 48cm
Standingbroadjump --> 189cm
Situp --> 54 per minute
Inclinepullup --> 17 per minute

Common Test 2 was an encouragment to me. Finally, Fatty Wong gave me a good pass in GP as compared to my CT1 grades. Although my Econs was shitty, at least i passed my lit and mathc this time round. I'll work harder..yesterday, me and my mom talked about getting a good A-level cert..man..pressure..and she seems least interested in getting us the new computer soon..

Hmm...do i stink now?? Actually, we can smell ourselves right?? Be it body-odour or bad-breath. Why then do some choose to ignore it and "kill" the people standing next to them?? *faintz*

Melt!! Haha..okie..concentrate on your exams first then..love ya lots too..oh guess what..i think im having a lame crush on a "boy" in school..get what i mean?? How huh..cuter than brenda. =P

Stef!! Thanks girl..the wall indeed took us much pain and shit to paint..esp that artist who drew it for us. Haha..glad everyone likes it!!! =P

BACK FROM THE OUTBACK

Hee..i feel so outdated ever since my computer gave up on itself. Shopped for a new one liao..cost about $2099++. There's hyper-threading technology, 17" LCD, DVD recorder, CD-writer, Window XP of course and many other functions. Graphics card and memory is good as well. =) Waiting for parents to approve then go get it. Actually, we're still debating about the brand since Compac was bought over by HP. Can't wait!! New computer is always so fun..simply because we'll take better care of it then an old computer..

Wah...so there's this big showdown in my class recently and i happen not to be there like all the time lar. Sunday because i left after presenting my part (to shop with mom) and today!! I left for dental appointment!!! *args* Whatever conflicts there might be, i believe our class is a hypocrite one. And i also believe there're some evil ones out there who's pretending to be nice to so that he/she can blend into the class..how hypocritic! *turned off*

Speaking of which, my braces will be off by end of June. Damn..im so gonna miss it?!?! Now, the color of my rubberband is white! haha..pretty ugly actually cause my teeth is very small. Dentist call it "mini bini teeth". *dot dots...*

During GP today, there's this stoopid debate over some charity and even-handedness stuff. Which me and Grace thought that the argument was too focused on just one tiny point of an entire essay. I finally gathered my guts and asked why should we put our expectations on others and make them try to donate money if they can. Hello!! Human rights okie..donate if you want and DON'T donate if you dont want..too bad..and my point here is: BE EVIL IF YOU WANT! Thanks for the applause class..haha..it wasnt to humour you all, i was pretty serious..call it PMS..whatever..

Was feeling super EVIL today. I dunno why..i need to be evil once in a while to vent out my anger. Sobhran has kindly lent me his hand to twist and turn. =) Tirene was like giving me the "aha..shanice going mad again, nvm im used to it" look. =P If i have a knife in class, i'll kill all of you..haha..of course i wont kill my girls!!! Only that i'll kill the rest..

2.4km run will be tmr for me..at 6.40am. Yupz..you read it correctly..its 6.40AM. Hell, run when the sun's not out and when the track is dark??? Or worst, run when my body just woke up from lala-land?? *shrugs* ask that Mr Goh..

Last Saturday, went to the gym with Donghai...he was so nice to show me around and taught me how the different equipments work. *amused* I hate training..did i tell anyone that before?? That's why my attendance for track is like shit..not only like shit, in fact, i come late, yes..an hour and more late.. =P

Painting the DRACO wall and the International Friendship Day banner was hell..but really glad Shuyun, Tirene and the rest of my friends from other draco classes came down to help. It really touched me and Kai Kian. But im getting really worn out by all the house stuff..

Results for this CT2 should be much better than CT1. i passed all except Economics..what to do man...what to do....!!! *whines*

Okie..so the thing about my "cousin" and I. Whatever you guys are thinking, just wanna say: stop thinking. I mean both of us are not even concerned about the gossips anymore and you all keep asking if we're together. NO...we're not and will never be. I'll never be with any guys..you all suck..i suck as well..so stop asking and say you're concern about me cause you merely wanted to find out what went on between us. Let me tell you: NOTHING FARKING HAPPENED. We go out, watch movie, shop, have dinner..all these are like nothing to me?? Dont think too much..if wrong impressions were given, shouldnt he be the one concerned and not the audience commenting on it??? Fark off..i hate guys. Dont let me kill you..guys are so insignificant in my life..go and die lar.

Zihui --> Hee..im so paiseh lar..sorry leh..i owe you one okie. =)

Melt --> Im forced to go for VJC concert to watch Liyu sing..sad life cause tix is so expensive..plus im dying in college..wish to chill out with you like SOON!!! go out leh...!!!!

Jenn gor --> im missin you..

Camille and Jasmine's vocal chords are not that strong. They should be out some time ago. Potentials are JPL and Diana. Needless to say, Fantasia and Latoya were the best! =)

NAFHA was shit lar..got 3 'b's and 2 'a's. Im so done with getting my 30 points. All short of 1cm or of 3 pull-ups to an A. Seeing nana do her incline flex armhand was amazing..the kind of determination i'd call it??

Watch the movie premiere "The Prince & Me" with Grace. She's kindly asked me out on a date with her. Was a totally cool movie..definitely my cup of tea. Romance and actionpack movies!! I have to close my eyes at some points of the show..man..makingme so jealous..Haha..i learnt a new word "STACKS". Haha..if you wanna know more about the show, come find me. I can give you a very detailed description of the show. =) Tho' me and grace got a little messed up by the venue...and the stoopid toilets of the theatre..cannot flush properly lar..i hate those sort of rubbish. I puke at the smell of ammonia..trust me, i do.

So i finally passed Math for the 1st time in history of common test. Hardwork has been paid for. =) "Paid for" also means that tuition fees are not wasted as well. =P

CPF trip was rubbish..i didnt learn much..but the thing was that that junk provided was good. Im a all-junkfood-lover. =P Keep eating these days..no wonder im getting heavier..

Darn...Mrs Sim said she's disappointed in me..that means i probably didnt do well for Econs?? Whenever since did my essay shoot above 15 anyway..

Sigh..Maurice just msged me. Suddenly missed him like nuts...army so bloody stand in the way of many things..i've learnt how to cope with it tho..i hope.

Age of innocence..damn..going to Subha's place tmr..i'll rather they come to my place actually..she wants 14 people to squeeze into her small place?? Haha..i have so much place and a yard! Whatever..

Melissa..i miss you..realised i've been avoiding life issues..making me nuts..this week's schedule is like so tight i might just die..need a hug from you my dearest friend!!!

Been whining alot to Alfred..and have been avoiding Jiesheng..whatever..Da Lao Po has been my lucky star..and i appreciate her being around. Zihui, sorry i forgot your birthday and i know im not as meticulous as you are..i'll pass ya your pressie thro' my sisters some other time okie?? Edward..thanks for always wanting to listen to me and all..and to my girls...i love you all so much...and to me, im stressed..

Computer's spoilt, for not rhyme or reason, it just burst..so didnt surf the net for 9 days..sorry for not being able to update my blog yea? =)

Passion of Christ was good..though i couldnt really tell who were the characters.

God-dad's still hospitalized..its been for ages..its his 71 birthday next week.

So much went on..dunno what to update about also..just wanna do well for common tests and NAFA test..better get a good 2.4km timing..