Daily Exposure

So pwetty!!

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I was thinking, if I'd offered my seat (1st seat parallel to the bus) to the middle-age man, i would have been the one in hospital.  The bus which i was on this morning, got into a minor accident. A motorist came out of nowhere and the bus captain stepped on the break, causing a huge impact on those who were standing. A bit traumatized.Thank God!

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Had a talk with my VP just after lunch yesterday..i requested.
I am so lucky my bosses are very approachable and humble people..
Seeking her advice on erm..human relation management..
I have a lot of good things to say about her although we do not have much contact in office.
She told my mgr I wanted to move around core ops, and she may take me away from the current team as soon as the opportunity arise (yay). But for now, i will support the team fully.

So sad. My job is good..i like what i do..but my manager is just not so easy to work with. She's nice on good days..buy us snacks..encourage us..smile at me..touch me..praise me..joke with me..but her managerial style don't really suit me/or the team. And i/we sink into depression thinking about the things she do or say to us =/ VP said its ok to surf net (she said she surfs the net too..). Why do i have to bother with what my mgr thinks? Truth be told, i still care about mgr's opinion of me. Business as usual, work gets done, efficiently and effectively. Why can't we rest? If your hobby is to work, why do we have to stay back to work with you? Thank you for grooming me, nurturing me..but i want to be happy even if it means working late.

Mgr bought me to Spinelli for coffee the day after she told me not to surf the net. Explaining why its not nice to surf the net in office..hell yeah its not nice. And she mentioned she can sense that im not really happy these days. I admit im bad at hiding my feelings, it shows on my face, all over in fact. I'm sorry i'm that expressive. Its hard to relate to people who cannot empathize.

It's rather complicated in the working world. Take what others say with a pinch of salt. Just do what you think is best. Bosses know if you're a keeper. I'm really thankful the VP cares about how i feel..work is not just all work.

Today, mgr spoke to me. I think she's beginning to ponder about some stuff. Thats good. We should all do some self-reflection. She was so patient. She taught me new stuff, explained a lot of reports to me. It's like she wanted my understanding in the way she thinks or acts. I felt her sincerity. She could have neglected me since she bug Giselle (the newest in the team) mostly. Finally she's spending some time with me. Haha. I'm happy with my day to day processing..but these days, i wanted to analyze more reports at work. Step out of my comfort zone..And she's offering me the chance now. So i shall cherish it. Afterall, its not easy being a mgr as well. I know. I really do.

We are only human.

So now, i'm gonna work on my relationship with mgr and be positive about working together. Things can actually be better (:

I'm considered a newbie in the financial industry, so much to learn and explore. Personal growth and achievement.....what exactly do i want. How do i figure out what is it i want?

Twins Date

Suppose to be quad dinner tonight.
Turned out only me and Peichin made it.
Love u! (:

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Work is alright..but my manager has been a total biatch.
She told me: try not to 'serve internet'... (her English cannot make it please)
Well, knowing me, i argued back with her of course.
Don't push your luck with me.

1) It's 6mins to official knock off time
2) i was on a medical website..not like..stomp.com.sg or xin.msn.com..i was reading up
3) there was absolutely no work to be done except to wait for market trades to settle for the day
4) everyone surf the internet..yes even the VP ok
5) you are the unhappy one..i dont think HG will be mad at me
6) i am not slacking. i dont have anything to do. besides, i am not a robot, you freak.
7) VP said it is ok to chitchat or rest if we're tired/stressed. but you, the biatch, keep cutting into our convo. you cannot stand us chatting, can you? because we leave u out of the convo and we dont lunch with you?
8) you're the rudest manager around. even my AVP agree.
9) you dont even do daily tasks. you do all the bo liao shit so cut me some slack
10) everyone in core ops know we're the team with the highest volume of work and longest working hours. will it kill u if im reading up on our large intestine?!?

I value-add to the team and i'm a good, intelligent worker.
I don't have any respect for you, I don't like you. So dont try and act all nice to me.
Doesn't work. You hypocrite!
If i don't give you any eye contact, you know its because i dont want to.

*Attitude must change*

Catfish

Internet dating. Yay or nay? Some people agree, some people disagree. Will supahotlation89 really be as tall, dark and handsome as he promised? Will mr_bling2010 actually take you to the Bahamas on his yacht?

Engaged

Not me.
But my elder sister.
Congratulations! (:

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4th of Feb, the VIP room at RWS restaurant has been reserved for our yearly relatives meal. One table cost 4 digits. Check back my blog on the photos of all the hypocrites in the world dining together. Don't get me wrong, i am a hypocrite at times too. But this won't deter me from feasting.

Can't wait for Cheryl to come back from down under at the end of this month! (:

Melly -> after CNY? hehehe

I think I think I think

I'm sorry i have to delete you off facebook.
I think my decision is right.

Morally, at least.

We can't even be friends because i think you're a douche bag.
You're acting like an animal befriending my gf for sex.
You haven't even met her.
Everyone's got mild split personality. I think yours is a little too extreme.

I feel so sick i even gave you a second chance.

Don't be mistaken.
I'm not feeling angry or upset.
I'm just in disbelief. Period.

And you really think we're not communicating just because we said we don't like each other?
Don't be naive.

Fool!

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I miss you Johnathan Chan.
I think you're the the best thing that ever happened to me in 2010.
I didn't cherish it.
I regretted unfriending you on facebook just because i was mad at you, being mad at me for giving up on us.
I don't regret not giving us a chance.
But i regret not being friends with you.

You're such an awesome friend, companion..
Now, i cant even ask you out for a simple meal.
Then i ask myself. What's the use of holding on to your hp number.
A lot of times, i wanted to email you from office, concerned if things have been going well in your life. But i know i cant. Its super damn unfair to you. I crashed your heart. What rights do i have..

I really am a butterfly ain't I?
I suck.
I need to grow a brain in my heart.
But after typing so much gibberish, i know i can only put my faith in the good Lord.

Is that so

Elder sis turned 26 last week.
I'll be mid 20s in about 6 months time.

Scary hor :(

Scabby chic vintage receipt holder. Love it lots..back in those days, they really use these to hold receipts in cafe etc. So pretty!
I think the fork is cute there.

Melly -> i want another staycation!!! :b when are we meeting up?

Studio M

Hahaha way to asher in 2011.

Gonna save more, give more, love more, curse less, more patience, see new places and attain new heights.

Happy new year folks!

Last collection of 2010 didnt rock my socks.
But still, it was a collection done (:

Must be the best treat alive.
From Indonesia, with the love of Xingyu (: