Jetstar. Not Jetplane.

Off to Bangkok with Jennifer, my cousin Cheryl and her other gf.

Hope this trip will be a fruitful one (:

A beautiful Mess

You asked too many irrelevant questions.
If you are that sincere, would 5.30am be too early to send your 'girlfriend' to the airport?

I'm an independent lady.
I don't need anyone to take care of me.
But you totally pissed me off tonight.

Stop calling me.
Stop it.
Just stop.

Sick of your explanations.

That night you said 11.45pm after movie was late.
And you only told me tonight you are feeling feverish.
What, are you expecting me to read your mind.

Time is like the main issue huh.
11.45pm too late, 5.30am too early.
'Unless i take the cab with you because i don't have a car.'
I cant believe it took me 12 months to realize we might not be compatible.
I was irrevocably betrothed to laughter (as i relate this to Faith)..

I'm blogging this because i'm so mad.
At you, ZQ. You, creamy.
Go away.

--

J, please dont invest too much in me..
Up to this point, i am still very very unsure.
I don't have faith in myself.
And i am afraid of letting go..

I wanna dig a hole and bury myself deep in.
Today at the bazaar, i had 7 hours to think about my life.
I decided i will get down to leading a normal life, find a regular job and give up on my apparel business slowly. As much as i don't want to, i think its only practical to have a stable job even if it means that i'll be earning a few thousand lesser.

But i hope Mummy will give me some time.
Afterall, my online business really gave me a good life before/after graduation.
I traveled freely for 2 years and i got most of the luxury items, when i want, as i want.

After March, i will get down to sending out resumes.
Needa clear out mess in my head.

I am almost 24.
No time to lose.

--

If you've been keeping up with me, i sorta psycho-ed myself into believing that the other J is not the one for me. Though i really like his company. Went crazy over him for 2 weeks. It's over. Shanice doesn't have anyone she likes at the moment. Just focus on making money, God will send someone near-perfect for me when the time is ripe. Someday when 'you' appear, i promise i'll love you with all my heart, even if it means getting hurt.

Right now, i don't feel like getting hurt.
So please don't make me hurt you.
We all need to guard our heart.

I'm dead beat.
Groggy as hell.
(Prolly blogging nonsense as well. antibiotics is killing me)

The moon, The stars

Today, you left for Melbourne and called me twice from the airport.
You sounded so happy after being upgraded to business class.

(:

Have a safe and fruitful trip, i'll see you on your birthday when i'm back from BKK.
Working hard on your canvas.
Hope to surprise you a lil'.

I'm happy but i don't want to take a step further, yet.
So i hope everything maintains..

--

Can't seem to cough the phelgm out.
Medication aint working, though its putting me to sleep..

@%$%^%^@#
Just lost $17!!!!
Crappy news..forex is my new found 'heart attack'.

Quad Date (i was without a date)

I must be crazy to give you another chance.
Because you blew it, again!

Nevermind about the quad date.
I asked you to come along. You are the only one i asked.
In the end, you turned it down.
I respected your decision although i was feeling very annoyed.

You explained that its in front of all my close gfs and there'll be a pressure.
"I'm afraid i wont be able to meet your expectations".

Please, its a casual dinner.
What kinda pressure will there be?

--

Ok, so we cleared up the air yesternight and i decided to soften my heart since i see some effort coming from you the previous few weeks.

We were suppose to go catch a movie tonight BUT you said that after 11.45pm it'll be too late for me...and that there won't be anymore buses home.

What?! Do i not have money to take a cab home? I'm not 12 years old.
Is there a mis-communication somewhere?
Or am i not getting it?

I'm not angsty or being difficult ok.
I just don't see how is it going to work out.

Stop calling me your baby.
Stop sms/call spamming me.
I need my space.

--

And if J is ever going to find out about this blog, he is going to be so upset.
I dont know whether to tell him about it or wait till he ask.

But i know i want him to leave for Melbourne happily tmr night.

--

Antibiotics and a whole lot of other medication making me drowsy.
4 ang bao packets were used to pay for my doctor's visit. SAD.

I better recover before i fly on Saturday :(

Convo

Me: wah u made your own milo this morning?!

Lil' sis: YA. are you impressed?

Me: nooo..its not like you built an empire O_o

The Hunt Continues

queuing with Justina

The Lovely Bones with Dine

Cousin's wedding dinner

Airshow 2010

PS Cafe with girlies

I've been on GMARKET for hours.
Trying to find the perfect batwing cardigan.
Composition, texture, color everything has to be perfect.
My eyeballs.......!

Angele -> yeah! i took a leap of faith..haha!

Turn the lights on

args i just typed a whole pile of shits on my love life.
and i decided its better for me not to have it posted.

Have faith in what you do

Adeline did a great job considering its her 1st attempt.
Contented with how the photos turned out today.
Mini collection, hope it sells! (:
Taking a break till March.

Addicted to FIJI water

The perfect print for CNY.

Went shopping with Rebecca.
Without any hesitation, i bought it.
It was almost like grab and go.
Love it (:

Movie-d with Jonathan, sucha disappointment!
Don't watch EDGE OF DARKNESS.