Camping over: Spent the night at Melissa's place...as usual, i got lost while going to her place. Kaoz..i've been there so many times but each time, i just cant find my bloody way..not street-smart?? haha..no no..because its at night and i cant see properly!!! Talk the night away, slept only at 2am. haha..woke up with her brother all over the bed asking me to wake up. Her dad was nice to cook breakfast. =) Pls...MY dad cant even cook...he gets the MAID to cook...oopz..sounds like me?!

Last day of the year...dont know how to spend the day..most probably at home. Meowz..mum just got back from Yangon..she and dad having a show-down...dont know whats gonna happen...dont feel like blogging anymore..

Im feeling rebellious these days..suddenly just wanna find excitement in life. 2 Nights ago, at about 2am, i nearly wanted to step out of my house and camp over at someone's place. The thrill of wanting not to be caught by my sister is tremendous! =) Although i didnt do it eventually, im thinking of tonning over at Melissa's place tonight...havent seen her family for about a year!!

Wah...my sister's friend gave her this "scent-bag" and the smell is all over the study room..diffusion! =) Hee..and guess what?? finally got a good math tutor to help me cope the subject better...its actually recommended by Michelle, my PL friend. Been wanting to get a tutor but dont really know how to go about finding one. Then poof! God sent me one! Think its not that i cant do math, more like im lazy to write down all the long and tedious steps..then i'll just keep skipping the questions...did i mention that my 2 sisters and i are totally nutcases for math?? haha..oh yes we are! Youngest sister is smart..so smart..but guess what..she cant do math! Oh well...buck up shanice!!! 3days to opening of college..gooTness..

Dinner at neighbour's house: Last minute invitation to have dinner and since for my family, dinner is the lightest main meal, we decided not cook and pop over for dinner with neighbour. Nice meal but i only ate salted vegetable, green vegetables, mushrooms and fishballs. Hahaha...notice it most are vegies? Meowz..my appeitite decreases once every month..other times i'll eat like a hungry ghost.

Emily sis just preached to me about lots of family values. Saw dad and her talking in the kitchen during tea-time. Didnt dare to go near them cause i dont really like to get myself involved in family businesses..i dont like to take sides between dad or mum. Lots of issues were raised suddenly and i am confused over who's telling the truth. But im wondering why am i not bothered or worried about what has happened..Both dad and mom has given alot for this family, i know and i see it. It's ok if mum complains about this and that after a hard day of work but sometimes i think her love her us is conditional..she's been complaining about this family as long as i can remember. On the other hand, dad has been the quiet one, slogging his guts out for us 365 days (dad doesnt have off-days due to business being family-owned). Mum doesnt seem to appreciate many things, i dont know what's running through her head...really...she doesnt bother to tell us and we cant be bothered to find out cause we might be in for some scoldings. Who loves to be scolded and shouted at for fun? Wah..i became sian thinking of whats going on in my family...wonder hows mum at Yangon..

...i seem to be avoiding someone again..whats wrong with me..i always let my heart rule over my head...i get irritated by this person...even if that person didnt do anything much to me...i think im not being appreciative...better start on my New Year Resolution soon..

Now for things i wanna do:

1) Sentosa!! i want more and more sun!!
2) Bolster!! i saw one today but it cost $19.90 because it larger than normal ones
3) Watch Ju-on 2 and freak the hell of myself out =P
4) Get a new bag..waiting for nice Mambo bags

notice that cheryl's not in my list any more..if she wants to spend time with me, i figured out that she'll send herself to my doorsteps..so be it if she has to hunt all 3 houses before reaching me..thats the way life is, sometimes people give too much and people like me are so stoopid to just keep giving for a friendship..im not complaining..just tired of way things are..

Chrismas dinner gathering at Godmom's place: Hee...i finally see 2 families getting together and having a good time eating. Too bad mum's abroad..It's also the first time i helped my Goddad up onto a wheelchair..perhaps i led too much a shelthered life..never had excounters with elderly people. He ate with us..i see him struggling by himself to put food into his mouth..so i helped him while eating mine too. Fed him soup as well..my heart aches to know that he's suffering when he's so fit when i was little..Godbro opened this red wine with 3% of alcohol content..guess what..after about 1/2 glass...i was totally flushed and got tipsy..Godbro said i was useless cause younger sister was drinking it like water and she's perfectly fine..haha

Orientation: Got this stupid meeting again from like 9am to 5pm...played wet games again and i got headache under the horrible scorching sun..maybe because i havent been training hard..saw that spermy again..should have joined canoe..the "sporttiest" CCA in SRJC..now im stuck to squash and track..meowz..better train next year..just realised that i havent touched any math hwk..im so dead..6 more days to opening of college..how...

Christmas: eve of christmas, went for steamboat at Marina Bay and ate till i went nuts...sister couldnt stop cooking seaweeds so half the time, my soup-bowl was like BLACK..haha!! was really crowded and packed..we cooked and cooked..drank and drank...like what my mother will call us if she sees the way we're feeding ourselves: yao_gui (hungry ghost)

Hee...walked through Orchard Road..the atmosphere was fantastic...this year slightly different in the sense that they are selling those "foam-spray". gooTness..squeezing through was bad enough cause people were like molesting me BIG-TIME..the guys just touched my waist over and over again..i couldnt really defend myself in that crowd..smelly and hot..yucks..then managed to get out of town and reach home in time for the countdown. haha..christmas at home is always the best =) slept late that night cause i went nuts..

Is chinese new year around the corner?? Mum is already like getting us (sisters & me) to start purchasing our new year clothes...its the only time i can pick out anything from any shop no matter how expensive it'll cost her. Usually it's dad paying for stuff i want..it'll be crude to call dad my ATM machine huh...he pampered me too much...although im not the only child..im second in placing..accidental pregnancy..meowz..

Mum just left for Yangon...wont be back in 6 days time..actually something bad kinda happened just before she left..and she made a comment saying she might not come home..i dont know..seriously, i dont feel that sad..problems run in my family once in a while but they are usually huge matters..args..adult matters...i shant interfere then..sisters also pretty confused with the truth now..

School's starting, havent even gone out once with my best friend cheryl who has returned form Perth for sch break 2 months ago..she's always claiming that she's sick or got things on...actually, she just doesnt have the time for me..trust myself to keep making time for her when im the busy one...once sch starts, what makes her think i'll have time for her?? once she returns to Perth for her university course, i might not see her till we're both like what...22 years old??? the other day, she asked me out..and when im halfway to the destination, she said she cant make it...maybe because im her best friend thats why it's easy for her to say she's not free knowing i wont mind..now that im thinking of it..it's kinda overboard..but nevermind lar..she's my best friend after all..luckily Melissa, my other best friend is nice enough to calm me down..she's always there for me when cheryl's not around.. =)

Sky's grey..so much revision to do and holidays are almost over..im not even ready for the New year..meowz........

Second day as "Drag Queens" of California Fitness Centre... i happen to have more luck: 5 human beings. Haha...one was my sister, then her girlfriend and cheryl. The other 2 were some NTU guys that approached me to find out what im promoting. Haha..they are working too but i begged them to help me! =) they are really nice and helpful...handsome too. -laughs- they offered me drinks seeing me perspire under the sun -smiles- Terrible know!!! they take so long to complete the tour and i end up rushing to finish my lunch at the glasshouse.

It was my class(sec2) gathering. haha..although 10 out of 40 turned up, it was sure a fun time with all of them..we havent changed much..except most are attached..to girls or guys. It's PL...there ARE lesbian. =) one thing for sure..we all grew out of sports bras!!! *hoot* meowz..took photo as well. Then the whole lunch thing ended 35mins after i came with Cheryl.

haha..everyone has appointment..then i rush back for shift 2 at Somerset's California Fitness. crapz...did for an hour, then it rained. so me and zihui toured the gym. Back at shift1 in Raffles Place, i saw this almost "gay-like" guy with tight sports pant. Geez..his privates were like almost "jumping out" of his pants???!! Gross...heard out of the 40% male members they have, 80% are gays!! *claimed as a myth by zihui* haha....gooTness??!!! i came home with discomforts in my tummy...didnt even swallow more than 5 scoups of rice...really dont wanna work tmr..think i cannot persevere well..too bad for myself..im the princess..-grinz-

MEOWZ................

Thanks to Zihui my choir junior, she introduced me to this $10/hr job. Mainly, i have to drag new members in for California Fitness Centre at Raffles Hall and at Orchard Road. wow..sounds like a good offer right..10 bucks per hour?? Crap..think about it: its lunch hour, the people are rushing for food..why in the world would they want to check out the gym?! But for every one person i drag in, i get $5 commision. My concern here is not about the commision..its whether im able to meet their target of 3 new members everyday!!! it's so tough..feels horrid not able to drag in ONE!! Im kinda gonna ask all my friend above 21 years old to help me out...i still gotta work till this saturday -pengz-

Besides that, California Fit. was really an eye-opener to me! sheesh..the ladies at the changing room are so damn liberal and open. Even if their figure is off, they dont mind stripping infront of EVERYBODY. yes..i mean STRIPPING!! gooTness..i got a shock ok. Dont get it wrong. im open-minded and liberal to a certain extent but im really taken-a-back when i see that in Spore, such people exist too. ok, perhaps at the public pools, people are just too conservative. -shrugs- all of them were just so open about their assets..suddenly felt like im in America. Good feeling after a while cause if its me, i'll feel comfortable naked infront of all the girls in there. =) so peeps, if you look mature to fake your age as 21, do come down fri or this sat to support me ok!!! =)

Haha...went for the BODY WORLDS exhibition with Tirene and Edward yesterday. Was really disgusting..but i learnt quite abit from looking at the bodies there. There's that plastination smell...makes me sick sometimes. Cannot even take pictures there..what the..ok..but its good enuf i can remember those..yucks..
i got to touch the brain and liver(i think) and it feels wobby..haha..cool...you guys just got to make the trip down yea!!

Haiz, gotta start thinkin of who i can call to go down and support me tmr and sat..if not cannot meet target..i'll just go die lor..hhahaha..ruff!!

Did anyone missed me?? -lols- was at OGL camp for 3 days and only got to blog now. The camp was cool, my family was the leading and winning grp throughtout the camp. This year's mass dance is cool and the steps were pretty tough but once we got it and everyone dances with that "oosh", it just look so so good!!! -claps- in case you guys are wondering what's that song, its Number One by BoA. =) oh, i was fed very well cause the food was good and i was freaked out by the nightwalk for the second time. haha..someone saw "something" in our college..scary huh..

My last shift for kettling at Raffles City..because my camp ended at 2pm and my shift starts at 2pm, Liyu dear had to stand in for me while i rush like shit all the way down...dont talk about how i managed to get out of camp for awhile to change out of my smelly and dirty clothes...wanna DIE getting permission and excuses for myself from the 3 teacher advisors. FUCK..i really hate them for giving me a hard time. i bloody cried over it..luckily Maurice and my squash-mates were there when i cried.. to comfort me. sucky college...

Hmm..and now for the update of my squash matches: played 7, lost 7. seriously, i finally figured out whats wrong with me already. my strokes are too limited and rigid. My strokes might be right, but sometimes there's no use. im suppose to make my opponent miss the ball. However, thoughtout the whole time, i've been like "helping" them get the ball. Some girls anyhow hit the ball, causing their opponents to lose the match. Weeguat is good in her boast stroke though...she deserved the points. i shant mention names but afew of the girls were discussing about why some "lousy" players can actually win matches..they actually anyhow hit the balls all over the place. what a way to win matches...

Talkin about the SAT test 2 weeks ago, i was damn tired while doing it due to my busy schedule. In my class, there's this tann and cute guy..totally my type cause he looks sporty to me. -lols- BUT im not boy-crazy ok!! im lesbian...hmm..i managed to make afew people nuts over my sexual preference. =) That day, our entire college was filled with good-looking guys from outside...haha..looks more like a college to me that day..

Oh, talking about guys...Willy's boxers was in the centre of attention the day of camp..haha...the PE shorts couldnt cover up his "sexy elephant" boxer. haha..all the girls were goo-goo-gaa-gaa over it. haha..he's funny and enthu...he can teach my grp the mass dance very well too!!! Haha...Nigel..he thinks i laugh very "funnily" and Donghai likes the way i burp..haha...kewl bunch of guys in my family! -cheers-

BuuuuuuuuurrrrrppppppppppppzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZ!!!!

Hee..just came back from my OGL family meeting. celebrated Nigel's birthday and had fun crapping jokes with them. Ooo..Nigel is kicking up a big fuss over my 2.4km timing. -laughs- seriously, i believe all of you can also run fast...WILL-POWER is what you all need. -smiles-

CIP kettling (Salvation Army) at Rafflescity has been great so far =) Get to see cute little girls and handsome guys..not so good looking ones as well...lots of tourists and gangsters...oh..that day i was doing with Liyu and we saw UTT!!! Oh my gooTness!!! He's like so attractive from afar and better closedup! haha, yupz..he donated! Some crazy people come and ask us what we are selling..haha..we are NOT selling ice-cream..we are KETTLING!! -lols- later have one more shift, then last shift on Monday. So, come down guys and suppport me!! ringing the bell for 4hrs can be tiring..i see my muscles growing! *hoot*

Oh, i have been doing some thinking lately..about my friendships and all. Then i realised that i havent been making ANY effort at all to keep the friendships going. Im busy and all...sometimes i feel guilty sometimes i just cant be bothered. i have too many friends...good or bad thing?? -shrugs- But the thing is that i only keep very few of them by my side. It's a 2-way thing as well what...either one of us must make the effort to keep in touch. One have to give more...i think after this week then i start serious revision and catching up with my pals. -smiles-

im rushing through SAT revision. think im retaking again...havent even touch the CD they gave me. Ok, i only did some topics inside and one diagnostic test and my score is like 1000+..my best score is only 1180?? gooTness..there're so many sections..i get aggitated LOOKING at the questions. haha, waste $ sitting for it tmr. But i'll try stay focus and think before i write the answers down. EST is shitty...bleaghz..

MEOOOOOOOWWWWW.....................................!!!!

Squash Farewell well, everything went smoothly except that it rained for about 1/2 hour while Bernard was trying to get the fire started. Even the yeartwos were helping us out. Weird, those people that i dont even talk to suddeny just talked and become so friendly with me. Probably cause im the host. Well, i'll upload some pictures of the BBQ if i have the time yea.

Jansen's a weird character to me. If he likes, he'll say hi. If not, he just makes eye contact with me and walk pass. Wonder if he's even my friend...considerin the few outings we used to have. He walked over and talked but i sort of pull myself away from him. Later, he scopped some food for me. Well, he brought his girlfriend frm bball as well. Yup, he's in the centre of attention for all the girls (im recalling what ziwei told me). When he heard that i lost 6 matched with 6 human beings, he asked me what the hell i was playing. How was i to know i cant play squash?? or i wasnt concentrated or well-practised enough...

i didnt even eat much cause the food just didnt seem appettizing. Luckily i didnt pay 10 bucks for it. Was the pocky and Yakult counted?? the shock came that night when Cheryl popped out of nowhere..haha..i was yelling and screaming!! she said she'll be back on the 5th of december!! Actually i knew something was wrong. Hell..even her dad ganged up with her to bluff me. As usual, im the last to know she's back. why?? simple...she said im her BEST FRIEND. -bleaming- haha, she's changed physically, but she's still very much saint up there in the head. She brought me a ESPIRIT top and some necklace...oooo...miss her plenty!!!

Ok, squash match beginning at 1pm, im not going anymore. Loss to 6 people already, go and play today also no use. Later going out with my 2 sisters to get my maid's gift..sheesh..she worked from 22 to 27 years old?! haha..she gave her youth away to us. But i must say she's lucky to be working for us although we drive her nuts most of the time. She said she learnt alot as well. Yups..good for us all. It's her last birthday celebration here with us before her contract ends next Oct. Gonna miss her...dad said we'll be employing more maids to help us out. i've been having maids as long as i've lived. Used to the well-provided life. Not that my family's rich or anything...parents hardly distribute their wealth. In case you guys are gussing how much allowance i get each week...it's 30 buck. gooTness..i spend more than that?! even mom knows i spend alot on clothes and "leisure" stuff.

That reminds me of what i wanna do this december:

1) Spend time with my beloved Cheryl
2) Go ice-skating
3) Prepare for provisional math9233 examination
4) Watch ELF and BROTHER BEAR
5) Do edward's present (i know it way past your bday..but..)
6) Go find a new sofa set for my family
6) Get my new bolster!!! and send my bear for washing..its white..now BLACK!! -lols-
7) Go on a family outing..dad's forever tired
8) Get a math tutor

ok, played squash with 6 players and lost all 6. Shanice really cant play squash?? have i made a wrong choice by not joining track or choir? -thinks- hate to believe im doing so badly. Later have squash farewell at the condo...wonder what's in store man. hope i dont be anti-social and be a bad host. yupz..tired..

somone just asked my how come i dont mind people reading my enrtries which appears to be like my inner thoughts. the truth is that i have a perceived self , middle self and of course my core(inner) self. yupz, what people see me as outside is what the environment has forced me to become. then for my middle self is how i view things on the surface and my personal opinions on stuff (my blog for instance). and for my inner thoughts which is written down in my diary of course, i dont let others know what im thinking internally. i dont like people to be able to guess how im feeling or how's my next step kinda thing. perhaps thats why i hardly open up to just anybody..i tell selective stuff to selective people. when i say i trust you..haha..do you really believe i trust you like 90%?? haha..think abt it..

ok..just realise im quite mean to this one guy in college..i'll try make up for it..i havent been myself lately..i dunno why..busy perhaps..this week is so packed...squash matches, CIP kettling at raffles city, econs lecture and my OGL camp. haiz..then got SAT exam coming this friday..i have yet to touch it for one week..better get going after lunch..

oh, my maid's(lili) birthday is coming up. im quite broke as most of you know..let me pick up some cash on the ground...PLEASE!!! -lols- haha..kidding..

MEOWZZZZ....