Blackout

Was in my room alone with suddenly, i heard myself yellin at the top of my lungs. Hee..blackout can be scary alright. I do feel insecure when the power cuts off..thats because i took lights for granted. I looked out of my window, total darkness!! It was ahwile later then i can adjust to the colour of "blackness". Feels a little like war to me. Good experience to feel how a blackout taste like after so long.

1) We took out all our candles using the light from our hp.
2) Talked to neighbour about when a blackout last happened.
3) Lit up our walkway and doors and kitchen table for mass studying.
4) Dad was complaining of heat, he wanted to book hotel for the night.
5) Im surprised dad didnt want to go to our private house since private houses dont black out.
6) Sister was bored, she played with wax like nobody's business.
7) Mum climbed up 13 storeys cause lift was down and she's out.
8) Pussycat thought it was fun.. =P
9) Me? Trying to figure out A&C with the candles.
10) Maid was happily asleep. Haha. She couldnt find the torchlight thats why.
11) There goes my Smallville recording.
12) Power restored at midnight for me.
13) But i still bathe with candles in my bathroom. Lovely!
14) Out of point but i really like to drink Yakult. *grinz*

A brain-draining day. Math and econs
bugger off..
Nice to see all my friends again.
2 very lame conversations to "make your day
Here goes:

Me: See the difference?
She: Yea, you got your teeth whitened.
Me: No, i didnt.
[opens mouth bigger]
Me: The braces is gone.
She: Ohhxxx...haha

Me: I think i saw porn pop-outs..
She: Haha..how many fishes did you see???
[-_-"""]
Me: No, not POND!! I meant PORN!!! Args..

Lay leng --> Haha..econs was managable. If i fail, i'll be letting myself down. Oh man..dont mention math, it sucks. Some questions can't even start writing anything. Hopefully can meet my expectations lor. Hee..continue to flood my taggie!!! *muack*

Hell!! MY PINKIE GOT CUT BY THE FAN BLADE accidently. It's bleeding like..you-know-what's-bleeing. It's so PAINFUL!!! It happened just 3mins ago..gooTness..

Went to the gym on sat finally after so long with Jasmine..met Spermy there. Haha..maybe i should just join Nationals and not back out. I got time to train after Midyears too. Hmm..

Dad was watching Stuart Little with us during dessert just now..haha..he's funny. Maybe pussycat should go for speech therapy..

Have been eating ALOT. Maid thinks im crazy..is that one of the stress symptons?? I know my work. But the thing is that my mind blanks out when Math and Econs falls on the same date. Yes, its gonna happen on both Monday and Thursday. After which i'll be free from Friday till Tuesday. How..can't seem to remember alot of things though i understand it. Like the brain just stop and donkeys start floating all around..maybe sheeps and goats too.

Last day of hols. After which, our study break wont be as long liao..

Man...aint butterflies beautiful?? *grinz*

Back to studies..off!

Layleng --> Haha..Math tmr..im freaked out!! Remember ur calculator!! Haha..i always forget mine. =P Best of luck darling!

Zihui --> Hee..you so blur until you didnt notice it right?? I like ur photo on ur blog anyway. So cute!! *pinches ur cheek* No, im not a big bully. You are. Hee hee.. =P

One, who loses money, loses much;
One, who loses a friend, loses much more;
One, who loses faith, loses all.

The Best Bet pretty okie..totally made everyone in the cinema go "huh" at one particular part. Haha..poppy spent $60+ on this family outing. I should be grateful there's even 1. No, it's out 3th family outing this month. =)

Nana --> Haha..you were MIA!! That's why you didnt know anything!!

Gracie --> Yea..too bad i dont take Geog. Why dont you girls take Math9233 with me??? *grinz*

Tirene --> Thanks ger! Heee..you still angry or what..?

Shuyun --> Baba..now you cannot call me SADIST!! The african kid's gone!!

Layleng --> Hee..the way im speaking with the retainers on is gross man!!!

Chris --> Yes yes..im bored stuff..shant tease you anymore. =P

Gwennie --> Hey laogong..haha..thanks!! How're you?

Zihui --> *pooot* Haha..so who's that daniel of yours??

Shu --> An artist commentin it's nice..haha..thanks!!

Jenn --> See the overwhelming response?? Haha..thank you for the time and everything!! *hugs*

Haha!!! Nice ?? All thanks to my wonderful jenn gor!! *muack muack muacks!!*

So, im forced to blog about the outing with my darling junior Zihui. Haha..i helped her get out of the house. =) Walked abt and got her baby's pressie in a rush..man..tell you ar..she's so sweet to you girl..cherish all of it tho everything might seem bleak okie? Why am i encouraging it?? Hmm..i dont know..haha..but you know who to talk to if you have any problems buggin you at home/school. *grinz* Hee..neoprint was great!!!! Awww...i hate that DANIEL on your blog who insist he's your bf..fark him man..what's wrong with him?? So thick-skinned!! Anyway, non of my business..haha..i shouldnt be so vulgar..damn myself.

It's killeth me. Cramps suck..i thought i will never experience it..how wrong..Better not be next week..imagine the shit you have to endure while doing your papers?? Args..

I used to think and say that love is such a forceful word. So much so that i dont really dare to use it on anyone except my on family and friends. Now, im beginning to think of what i'd said as a "stupid logic".

I mean love is just a form of expression. Im dumb. When someone says i love you, well, so be it. Why do i always suspect or ponder too much about it. Love is just love. That's it. Fullstop. It's as simple as that aint it?? Why didnt i make things easier on myself earlier?

Of course there're various degrees and definations of love to everyone. But it's an individual sort of thing isnt it?? Like if Boy meets Girl at the park, they can call it true love or not. And who are we to judge anything. Im guilty of judging.

Love's a nice feeling huh..heart-racing..comfy feeling when a couple's together. Even family love is felt everyday..think about it. =) Yes, arguing is part of it as well..anger get the better of you. But then, the more you hate the person, the more you love!

Happy father's day!
I love you so much daddy..all that you've done for the family..although you do have some really bad habits, you're the only constant person in my life so far (besides God). Hope we have been bringing you joy all your years of fatherhood. *hugs*

Jenn gor -->my tag and link all gone leh..how come huh???

Layleng --> Silly girl..mug hard!! People keep telling me they will study hard after one week of play. Now, they are all slacking away. Haha..mug hard aim hard study smart!! *kisses*

Braces off yesterday.
Feels so weird;
Like naked, like numb, like smooth.
Haven't felt my teeth for many years,
does it feel like this for those who dont wear braces?
Oh, what a beautiful feeling
To have;
nice, white, smooth
HTEET.

I can't speak properly. Damned.

Im back in Singapore!!! *yells and jumps*

1) Missed pussy cat (hamster) so much!! haha..im not an animal lover okie..i usually ill-treat them..till i saw pussy cat..haha

2) My precious bed, bathroom and fridge!!

3) My family - daddy, sisters and lili..

4) Friends..

5) Really wondering how's the literature wall goin' on.

6) It's like after 4 days and 3 nights abroad, i totally lost touch of the time, day, date and whats going on..i know Reagan died..meowz..

7) Many people sms and called me, sorry i couldnt really reply or pick up the phone. It'll be too expensive for both of us.

8) Mamamia..i shop like shit but didnt really buy anything for myself or for you guys..everything can be bought in Singapore. The shops were basically a duplication of the "Orchard Road"'s shops.

9) I've got so many caramel sweets/chocolates...nice pastries...socks...lingerie...hair accessories...CDs and VCDs...real and pirated ones...MAC cosmetics...and 3 boxers with i was totally attracted to! Haha..it's PURPLE!!!! The designs were cool and the material...oooo...you dont wanna take it off!!! Haha..i tried it by slipping it thru my hands..even mum thought it was nice. *grinz* Im keeping it, till i find some guy friends who is capable of "carrying it off well" to give it to as a gift. That will take me ages..maybe "SHE" can wear it..haha

10) I ate 6 meals a day..practically every 6 hours, i have a full meal. Yes..i probably shit as much as well. Mum's bon appetite drove me insane. Luckily my metabolism rate's HIGH. *smiles* Im gonna go on a diet..

11) Wah..hotel room was good..i hate wet toilets..so mum was kind enough to allow me to go first always. =) But we have a game of "tug-of-war" every night with the remote control. I wanna watch English shows and she wants some other freaking channel..meowz..

12) Traffic was a killer!!!! Luckily there're many short cuts and ways to avoid the traffic jam..

13) Shopping centres were mega-huge..restrooms are forever crowded..you wanna wee, you wait. Shit man..why can't girls pee like guys???!!! Fast and convenient..you can see who dirty the urinals as well..FINE THEM!!!

14) I managed to study Economics - Production & Cost, Elasticity and Market Structures very night before i retire. *achievement* Im left with Macroeconomics that is.

15) Wonder how's Ms G and my god-father..had a nightmare..worried for them..im thankful im pretty healthy.

16) Holiday wasn't that bad afterall.. =) Now, gotta get back to studies!!!

17) Shitty...national track & field competition how?? Args..see how..haha! *shakes buttt*

Melt --> Are you back in town dearie??? =)

Layleng --> Sun-tanning session with you girls right?? Is the date confirmed?? Im back!!!! Haha..thanks for the invitation to Sentosa..hee..

Sheryldine --> Yupz..PLMGSS musical!!! Haha..my sisters are in the cast!! *woot* Its my birthday so must must wish me yea! *lolz*

Jasmine (lame kid =P) --> Was reading your past few entries..haha..yupz..i totally understand on the part of us not wanting to change tho' we know it's sinning against God. Guess we all need more time eh?

Grace --> When are you and Nana coming over for a swim at my condo?? Haha..

It's almost 2am. Im remarkably clear-headed enough to blog on my "holiday" schedule. *pooot*

Math
32 tutorials included-
Which means 4 "sub-topics" per day, 8 days.

Economics
micro and macro-
Have to complete micro topics in 1 week and macro topics in another week.
Lots to suck up into the brain.
Many graphs to practice drawing and theories to memorise and test papers to look through.
My shittest subject of them all...

English
6 texts tested-
Im only done with ANTONY & CLEOPATRA and SHE STOOPS.
Gotta finish OTHELLO by today. *stressed*
Then i'll be left with the difficult texts of Paper2. I loathe this paper the most. I can' seem to connect with the language. JUDE THE OBSCURE and AGE OF INNOCENCE will take me 12 days.

Others
-I needa call Cheryl soon, she might start to kill me in Australia.
-I needa catch up with friends.
-Then, i havent go shop in town yet!!! It's the G.S.S!!! *jumps*
-Gotta train for nationals track and field 2004. But i shant train...i hate it all... *bites*
-Im savin the best for last: i needa renew my love for God..im sorry i slipped away from him earlier in the year..

I'll be away on a holiday from wed morning till saturday night. Remember to think of me. =) Yes yes, try to get gifts for some of you..but seriously, all the things are available in Singapore lar. Haha. *shakes butttt*

My throat's so sore its killing me. I can't swallow properly at all!!! Think i might fall sick while abroad..

Meowz..can't believe what mum gave all the females in the household today. Haha..her friend is doing a survey on this new panty-liners called LAVEN. If response is good, it'll be imported in. We happen to be the laboratory-pigs. *roars* It was so funny i was laughin the shit-arse off my head in the evening. =p

Happy holidays to one and all.. *smirks*

Peichin --> Silly..haha..just get well before we meet out okie?? Miss ya too! =p

Mike --> It's over..haha..remember??? Nothing's gonna work anymore..lame boy.. *bleaghz* I've put it behind me, you should too. *winks*

Melt --> Enjoy ur trip abroad too yea!

Girls --> Will miss you all. =)

Peichin..i know how difficult a "back" operation is..the pain and after-effects. My dad had a serious case 4 years ago and he almost went paralysed for life. Thank God for health and his blessings on him and you. Take care okie?? Though we havent seen each other for a year, i still ask Faith about you all the time. Haha..love you lots. Will keep you in my prayer and speedy recovery to you darlin'. *huggies*

Did you miss me?

Miss Sharon Quek's wedding!!! Haha..went to Liyu's place to change and all...her place is a pig's pen. Gosh was it dirty. Haha..we arrived at CHIJMES and started the rehearsal. Took many pictures..will upload them soon. =) Im really proud to be part of this holy matrimonial..and cheers to the song item we put up. Comments were that we sang really well. *smiles*

Hmmm...watched Harry Potter with Liyu and Jinsheng. Kinda chap cause i deprived them of sth..haha..told her i dont wanna come liao. Meowz..anyway, show wasn't that fantastic. Company was great tho'. =) Haha..had turkish ice-cream for dinner at Far East and took a bus down for wedding dinner at Crown Prince Hotel.

The food was actually very good as compared to many other "higher class" hotels. =) Sat with a table whom we're not very familiar with..except for Jasper:Pastor-to-be and Jasmine (PL's worship team). The food was served fast and my stomach bloated up after the dinner ended. *burpz*

Was a very simple wedding..it took my teacher a year of planning. Hmm..weddings always touch my heart..i don't know why..seeing couples get together for life in the presence of God is just splendid.. *smiles*

Really tired for now... *crawls to bed*

Festival of Praise was fabulous!!! *jumps*
Made me hungry for God and im so so proud to have him in my life!!! Amen!!!

I love the cookies.. =)

Oomama..woke up at noon after studying till 3am yesterday. Hmm..took neoprint with Layleng my da_lao_po. Apparently, we clicked on the wrong icon and didnt get to decorate our photos. *shrugs* haha..oh well..it was still nice and pretty tho'..

I have this sudden craving for durians..then i bought the durian roll from Angie's choice (my fav cake-shop). Now, i feel super duper heaty..like i can't swallow my saliva properly.

Man..the wind slammed my studyroom door shut and i can't get in cause it was locked!!! So i came up with this ingenious idea of opening up my window. Felt like a stuntman for awhile as i climbed thru' the window to open my locked door. Dot dots..

So tomorrow's Ms Quek's wedding. Im pretty excited about singing with my friends for her. =) I'll be wearin a flow-y skirt...man...thats so so not me...i hate wearing those type of girly skirts that flips up when there's a slight breeze. Anyway, here's the song i'll be choral singing..

I will be here - Steven Curtis Chapman

Verse 1:
Tmr mornin if u wake up
and the sun does not appear,
I....., i will be there.
If in the dark we lose sight of love,
hold my hand and have no fear,
cause' I....., i will be here.

Chorus:
I will be there
when u feel like bein quiet,
when u need to speak your mind,
I will listen,
and i will be here
when the laughter turns to cryin
thru' the winnin and losin and tryin
we'll be together,
cause' i will be here

Verse 2:
Tmr mornin if u wake up
and the future is unclear,
I....., i will be there
As sure as seasons are made for change,
our lifetimes are made for year,
so I......, i will be here

Chorus

Bridge:
I will be true to the promise i've made
To you and to the one,
who gave you to me

Aint that such a beautiful song?? Thought i can't see myself getting married for now, but but but, i really think that marrying on the 11 of Nov (11), 2011 will be the perfect date. *grinz* I'll be 25 years old by then. Perfect age to get hitched for a woman. =) What a myopic view of wedding..there's just so so so much much much more to it.

Rejoice in the Lord!!! Hahaha..my computer is somewhat or rather fixed!! What a nice way to start the hols! *grinz*

Anyway, can't believe im so tired the past few days. Im zonked out and paralysed badly that i can sleep for 24hours straight. Yes, you can tell it from my sleepy eyes..really happy that Maurice popped out from my window yesterday night to see me.. *smiles*

I went to catch "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" with Edward just now. Since i was the one who thought it was a good moive to catch, it's weird how much i dislike the idea of Love in that show. *shrugs*

Hillsongs on friday at Indoor Stadium, 730pm! Anyone wanna join me, grace, shuyun?? It's gonna be the best praise and worship session. Interested? Hee..can RSVP me. =) We'll all go together. God's calling out to me..

Tirene --> Sweetie, can i borrow that CD of yours with can edit photos?? Hee..computer's working!!!

Melly --> It's okie lar, i dont wanna kill you too much over that incident. =) Cause we're best friends! Hee..please contact me once you're out of camp and kicking okie. haha..

Zihui --> I have alot to speak to you...we'll chill out one day okie?? Contact me girl, you seem pretty pissed off on your last entry. I can make things right for you again. *huggies*

I dont want to discuss the future when i myself dont know whats going on in my life. I just want you to be happy..yet i think most of your happiness is in my hands. I'll try not to make u upset..really. I can't give you any guarantee but i want you to know, i care. Deep in my heart, i know all the sacrifices and feelings you have for me. I don't know why am i not reacting to them. I dont want us to be too close, because i dont want you hurt. Signals might have gone wrong, i sometimes allow them because i know you like me. Im allowing more space, yet closeness between us. Im not ready for anything at all, you know that. And i know you're just being too nice to me. Believe me, i dare to say i care about you now and that i appreciate you. =)