Cried an Ocean

I'm trying to keep my spirits up.

Catching up with Melly and Zi Hui was awesome. Except something kept haunting me behind my mind. Glad u girls found ya love.
I'm not a happy girl.

Cheryl's gone back to Melb. I'm missing your company already. Promised i try to be there at ur graduation on December.
I'm not a happy girl.

Why do i've to go through this myself.
I was trying to forget you.
I thought i loved you.
I'm not a happy girl.

Mock's starting tmr and will run till next Monday. I'm screwed. Bad things happen at the wrong time.
I'm not a happy girl.

Literary sense kickin' in

My agenda for this weekend:

1) study
2) study
3) study

But still, gonna take out some time for a lunch date with Melly and Zi Hui at town (:

Guys & Games

I realised most guys really love hittin the arcade, sitting infront of the teevee playing xbox and gaming all the time.

Quite disgusting.

Ok, nothing else to talk about. Except.

Was blogsurfing and Angela's caught my eye. Actually, i wrote something similar to that of yours last year, starting with you're "the only one.....". As time passes by, the list just becomes shorter. Well, the sad truth is that you no longer do them for me now.

Why am i tryin to hard to get your attention? Simple. I dont get any.

Typing this alone is enough to make my heart swell. Fuck those nights i cried myself to sleep, having other guys comfort me.

Do people call that the downsides of any relationships?

Melly -> meeting u and zh tmr for lunch!!! very excited pls!! haha..bring ya camera!! oh oh...hey hey, sending cheryl off with me at 7pm in the evening on sat?? come come come!! haha..damn..HONEYPOT!! i checked the place out with cheryl yesterday. kinda cool. =)

Nah. Not cute.

An afternoon out with Cheryl my bestie! =) Very happy to be around with her. Tried on cosmetics, checked the guys out (im more interested in checking girls out) and dined at Marche, Coffeebean and Takashimaya. Fatness!! A pity you're heading back to Melbourne this Saturday. *sobs*

Anyway, this caucasian stole my heart on the NEL train. Yes, u heard me right. Haha, a lil' boy dashed into the train and his Mum was stranded outside. He took the initiative to look after the boy while the rest of us (READ: locals) just looked upon the unfortunate event. I've never felt so ashamed?! Ok, should stop gushing but i feel like marryin him. Haha. Bless this man!

I wanna try coloured contacts. What colour would you guys recommend me? I dont wanna appear too "posteur". Misty grey? Violet?

Ok, its Honeypot for brazilian next month (:

The Ripcurl Girl tee that i like!

Cheryl and I (:

Marche

Red; Roasted

Decided to add Angele's contribution as No.9 Haha.

Anyway, head down to Sentosa with Shuyun today. Sun was mighty but it came on and off. Got burnt still. =) Think the last time we went back together was almost a year ago! How time flies and how fair we have become. Hee.

We got harressed by this black guy. He said hi to us then stalked us all the way. Disgusted please.

And of course this caucasian who changed into her bikini on the beach with 3 guy friends with her...saw the tits, got a shock because i believe Siloso's not a nude beach!

Got down to some serious studying at Coffeebean till we saw that black guy coming towards us. He sat comfortably at the table beside us (obviously on purpose) and then we hopped on the tram to Delifrance. *curses*

Such photos whores we are. Haha. Snap snap snap!

Angele -> damn. sorry for the confusion. my haloscan's so screwed sometimes. but anyway, my mistake for seeing ya tag as melly's. =/ haha..yes, good luck for mocks. im so uninspired by the books. hope u'll still see my reply!! heh. silly me.

Zihui -> haha, this post was inspired by you sweetie! haha, or rather too much of 'people' watching. *grins* im so sorry u're the victim of No.3 it is the most disgusting by far. rated 10 on my puke scale. O_o 25th's coming sweets!! heee..

Melly -> haha, i edited top 8 to top 9! =p yes, smooching away on public can be quite gross. anyway, those mirror shots're a preview for the new bikini i bought. actually, i dont really like triangle cuttings. =/ hee, yes, my mock's coming...why am i still going out. *faints*

Pet of Sentosa: Striker!

Shuyun & Striker

Me & Striker

Mirror shots

Black & White nail polish!!

Siloso tram

Hard at work

Top 9 Common Sights, on the move

1) grown-up men snoring a mile away on trains
2) disgusting males drooling on trains
3) crazy ah-peks masturbating on bus
4) teko-s gawking at girls on bus (in fact, everywhere)
5) old men having difficulties smsing because fonts're too small
6) drivers picking their nose in cars at traffic lights
7) standing passengers airing their underarms on bus
8) public displays of short skirts/low-cut tops and thus the exposed bums and boobies
9) Public display of affection to the point they wanna strip each other off

Needa pull up my damn socks. Over and out.

Melly -> haha there're pictures on her blog ma! oh oh oh..my roxy bikini is bought at a price of $45 coz there was 40% discount! haha..black and white..like graffiti-sorta design. hee, now that we both have a new bathing suit, lets hit the beach after my mock? yes, cant wait for 25th!!! but for now, i needa mug. ughs!!

Monday Blues? Nah.

Mugged hard today (:

Anyway, will be companying Rushdy for his officer ball on the 18th and supporting Chris (and might as well the rest of my officer friends) for his parade on the 11th. Army boys're so annoying. Haha. *grins*

Why doesnt dirtyboy say anything other than its 'my call'??

So, i got a haircut yesterday. You know how it always makes one feel better..after a good haircut that is.

Melly -> yes, must be the name. haha..she has the same surname as me. oh well, she's in tp. so..u might've seen her ard! =) i love my babe too..haha..here's hollandv auntie giving u a big warm hug *hugs*

Dine -> i've posted 2 pics of you and me. haha..more than others. happy now?? hee..tell me more about N70. does it lag or is it really good?? haha..im dying to get it for my bday. =) do u miss me?? i do..haha!!

damn..im peeling. (2005)

Dine.Sha

me.tirene (:

NAC monster

Chinatown (1a03)

Billy Bombers (melly.me.sy)

Member's bar deco (Zouk)

Eliza sis and me @ Giant

Olio (:

Terrible photo of me & wyn (where're my eyes?)

Bikini Bar was deserted

Coastes Sentosa:
7 hours of work. Nice scenary, breeze, sun, drizzle. Colleagues were pretty nice considering it was my first night at work. Trying to pick up fast. Thankfully the bar/restaurant closes at 1am and i get home by 2.30am. So much better than Zouk. Meals're provided as well, we get to eat the food on menu if there're extras. Haha. Delicious. You guys should chill out there during the weekends, play some board-games (which's provided), lie on the hammock with ur baby, listen to the tribal/R&B moosik and sip some wine. =)

Fish. The bartender is uber cute??!!! She's a bung lar. Haha. Distracting!!

Babyboy, thanks for spendin the night over (and the yummy egg-tart). Love you heaps. Let's dig into Phish Food next weekend (:

Posted some photos above to share with you guys. Cheers to an awesome Sunday.. =)

Zi Hui -> hahaha...yes yes...my mum saw the last UOB card i had and confiscated it straight away. now, i wont be able to spend anymore. *sobs* yes, must learn the art of saving. dont shop lor. hahaha. how sad, i dont even look like im almost 20! =p take care and i'll seeya soon babe. 25th? =) FIONA XIE!!

A nasty Friday

Lunched with Zi Hui babe at SRJC yesterday. Met her boy, caught up over noodles (frikkin' cheap!!) and walked ard the college. I'm just so glad everything's going rather well for you now, cherish your remaining time there and at SAJC yea. *hugs* 'll always be ma fav junior (:

During biz mgmt class yesterday, Moorthy made us write a closed book test on any question we wanted. I was trying so hard to force those crap outta my little puny head. And then Oliver called me to help him work at Zouk. *curses*

Couldnt say NO because i just spent on another Roxy bikini and a top from The Station. Decided to work the shit money back. Wrong move.

It was 'squeeze therapy' the whole night at member's bar. Fuck? I cant help but get frustrated and pissed. Ok, happens all the time but since i havent been to work for 3 weeks, just let me rattle on.

Because of limited space and a huge crowd, please frikkin' learn to walk SIDEWAYS alright! And damn those endless amount of crotch and boobs i had to brush across while trying to carry the ice-bucket, 20 martini glasses and mixers. That was frikkin' disgusting ok. I felt like I was the one violated over and over again.

Swallow conversations of those whores and bastards. Checking of friends friend's cute friends and trying to get laid because he was frikkin' horny. Seen enough. Ew.

Anyway, left at 4am. Oliver begged me to work for him next fri and sat. I wish i can but i've exams in 8 days and i just took on a new job at Bikini Bar! Damn?? Zouk increased pay from $6.50 to $7. Haha, awesome!! Wyn, im earning the same as you now! *grins*

Met her on bus 16. All on our way to Zouk. Except she's going there to party and me... *sniff* to work!! Both pictures we took were blur! Haha. And i look like i've no eyes?! Wtf? And she's so funny, Brenda and her were taking a photo on the journey because its their 1st time riding a bus together. Sweet. =b

How come my babyboy and i dont do such things?? heee..

Melly -> hee, wyn wants to tell u that everyone except YOU agree that brenda's so much more hot and pretty than carol. haha. yes, im a hollandv auntie waiting to get stripped by the hollandv auntie (another 1) haha. when we do have the cash!!

Desperado

Hard to believe i actually got outta bed at 9am. First thing heard was my babyboy's voice.. =)

Bought ya favourite B&J-Phish Food. Dont say i dont love you. Haha.

Damn. Was checking out JetStar Asia Airways for Mom. She wanted to go Bangkok or Vietnam after my May exams. But i wanna go Denpasar!! Actually who cares where i am, so long as my babyboy comes along on this trip. *grins*

Couldnt resist 8Days!! You see my babe on the cover????!!! Oh man..Fiona Xie, you hot little bitch!!! And and...im not done...you guys saw her on channel5 yesterday??? Ughs...you're like gorgeous at every angle! *salivates*

Ok, in case you think im like some kinda psycho lesbian i'll stop. *fantasizes* Ha!

Melly -> haha, no prob. hollandv's branch kkk?? hee...wait for my pay first though. =p Holiday end of May or start of June??? hopefully dine comes along too..haha.

Engrish pery Worst

Haha.

Nothing to say.

Actually, i do have.

Melly -> i checked it out. there's this place called HAIRAWAY and VISAGE THE SALON at orchard. Prices seem to be comparable to STRIP. haha. will do it when i get my first pay from bikini bar. hee. missin u loadssss!!

Liyu -> kapo lar. haha. normal stuff lar! bet ur bunny boy was as sweet too. *grins* meet out next week....when!!! =)

Zihui -> haha, friday'll be rushing. coz my class' at 2pm! hee...u dirty lar!! so many things can be worn right! like necklace??? haha..love-love!

Valentine's

6 mins past midnight, dirtyboy popped over and gave me a huge shock. Ok, good surprise there. Haha. Loved his gift. I'll wear it!! And i think you've the idea i love flowers. Haha, i might just be growing outta them already. But nevertheless, i adore everything you give me. Thanks honey.. =)

Was thinking he might stay overnight..nah..he's gotta head back to camp. *pouts*

You're sweet... =) I'll squeezed out all my "heart juice" for you tonight..haha..love you!

Liyu -> hahaha...yes yes, has been a year. Looks like someone doesnt need a date on vday 06' eh?? *grins* yupp, you're the busy one, PLEASE DO CALL ME OUT!!! haha.. *bounces ard*

Happy Birthday, Angela

Went shopping after school with Pauline. She wanted to get the vday gifts. A pity it was a failed trip because she got tired after a while! Haha.

Got a cologne for dirtyboy. He'll smell like Melly and then i'm gonna smell like him. O_o Haha, you can guess it now. It's CK 'be'. *grins*

Happy vday folks (: And will you be my valentine?

Melly -> oh c'on, u're not some grey animal lar. You're my hot breastie. heehee. Dont bother working unless u've too much free time on ya hand. for me, im desperate to save. and torturing myself too hard. *sobs*

Coastes Sentosa

I got a job at Bikini Bar! I guess they took me in because of my work experience at Zouk. Was talking to Jasmine when i realised i didnt ask them about the pay and many other stuff. Like what to wear to work this coming Saturday at 5pm. Sheesh.

I'm worried i'll give up halfway. But i'll try to stick to the job for at least half a year. Or at least till i save enough.

Bikini-clad. Dirtyboy and my parents' gonna kill me.

Shu -> haha, alrights, send ya when im free. =)

100 Pantyliners

Was almost inspired to dedicate this post to Shu Ming He. Haha. My goodness, realised i have a photo collection of Shu at different times, with different hairdos. Please, it went as far as curly long fringe. Haha. Unbelievably eww.

But i shall be really nice and not post them up. Haha. Afterall, we spent 5 hours infront of his teevee (12-5 a.m.) watching The OC. Thats a lot of electricity consumed ye. Appreciate the company, steamboat (fish was good!), koropok (?!), and countless of M&Ms packets i emptied into my mouth. Most of all, i wanna say..YOUR SISTER'S CUTE!!! Haha..i'm not kidding..except for the heavy bottom..but that aside..she's MINE!!

Marcus squirtz, sorry i cancelled on ya. Next week lah! Haha. Before ya operation, i promise. =/

And so, its reunion dinner tonight to mark the end of the lunar new year. Which reminds me of mock exams in another 2 weeks or so.

Perfect capital mobility - Globalisation - Funtional ares of management - Hypothesis testing. Oh man, stab me. Haste-post-haste!!

Zi Hui -> miss u too, very much in fact!! So when when when?? Hee.. =)

Shu -> did u say ROCKS? haha...i 'thought so' too.. O_o

Feelin' stupefied

PLMGSS has done exceptionally well this year. To God be the glory.

Lil' sis Eliza got 12 points. The same as my older sis Emily. Apparently, they scored the same for PSLE. And that just made me the dumbest in the family. O_o

Not a nice feeling at all.. *sniff*

Ballistic

Ice Floral Treatment - Alicia did it for me today..she was really nice and patient, couldnt take the high frequency zaps you see. And she went an extra mile for me, secretly of course. Haha. Next week, i wanna try Acne-Face-Touch then maybe Demabrasion. =) Kelvin said Demabrasion's his recommended treatment.

Ate noodle omelette at PS before met Cheryl. It was uber oily and i felt so bloated till i actually'd to skip dinner! Shopped, chilled at CoffeeBean for Dulce and Caesar Salad before shopping again. I Y my best friend!! I can't believe you're leaving in 2 weeks? *pouts*

Anyhows, I tried to saved. But couldnt resist and got another bag for school and a spag from Giordano. Must be the 6 color i swear! Haha.

Layleng -> hee, no problem. =) i got it from a friend's blog too. i love this quote!

Dine -> when's ya hols babe? let us know..think we wanna go during june..or whenever most're free actually..hee..monsoon should be over by then if we're touring asia!

Melly -> breastie!! im broke..no money for brazilian!! u gg back anytime soon?

Mistake's done

At this moment,
there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world,
some are running scared,
some are coming home,
some tell lies to make it through the day,
others are just not facing the truth,
some are evil men at war with good,
and some are good struggling with evil,
six billion people in the world,
six billion souls,
and sometimes, all you need is One.

Peyton Sawyer, One Tree Hill

Beautiful aint it..

I havent any idea why in the world would i be thinking of stuff like that. It is very difficult to stike a balance between deceit and honesty in a relationship. I shouldnt even be thinking of destroying something i love so much. It's so selfish and unfair. I'm sorry darling..just so sorry. Sometimes, i feel i do need someone stronger to help me get through issues that im bugged with and i havent got anyone to turn to instantly. Because the 1st person i thought was You, yet all i got was cool answers which made my tears fall even harder. Darling, I believe its You that i need and want. I Y u so much, sweets. Dont wanna let us go..i wont let this happen, just wont.

Snow Ice-ing at SMU after school with Jerrome and Pauline yesterday. Chill and did some catching up. Actually we were just crapping away. *grins*

Home alone. Needa feel that 'rush' to study. Hypothesis testing sucks. Globalisation is worst.

Melly -> good that u're pampered! im not as lucky as you're. hee. yea, needa do some plannings. dunno leh..maybe bang-some-kok will be a good place too. but i miss bali..yes, rafting!! mum kept thinking about bali bombings. *curses* oh, aussie..might go to melbourne end year for cheryl's grad. come come?? haha..for now, lets focus on june hols. =) cruise will be good too, but boring. states?? no no...far!! haha..i'll miss home!! max 4 days lar. haha..ASIA!! yes, must get dine to bring us around..she's like some traveller. haha. well, the main point is i've to use my own savings and so i cant fly too far or too long. pauper!

Zihui -> you still owe me a date out!! not SRJC pls..haha..miss u sweets!

1 Jan - Taken at Emily jie's condo party with Yongyi. Good luck with studies at Brisbane ex-neighbour!

$65 for this Roxy top *gasps*

Surf & Sweat 06'

Guys came over for the OC marathon yesterday. Started speaking like the characters, haha. Sorry i wasnt quite a host, well basically just make yourself feel like home. =)

Chingay Parade with Chris at 7pm, Din Tai Fung for dinner. The xiao long baos're gravy-licious! *slups* And considering it was my first time watching the parade from half-lane seats, i must admit it was awesome being part of this event. Fireworks display was pretty, noise and music there made me feel like dancing!

Except Zouk and Wei Hao have to keep pestering me to work. I didnt go of course, tempted to earn the money but i have to go for Surf&Sweat early today.

Which brings me to say: the Sun was mighty today!! Great seeing Jared and Nigel and Ena and Liyu babe. Left at 1pm (damn frikkin early?!) to meet dirtyboy for a swim at his place. Not exactly tanned but some colour on my skin is better than it looking dull. A bucketful of love to my boy for the lovely afternoon (:

Can never thank Angela enough for helping me change my template (again). Kinda sick of the plain brown one, so there! She's good with it man! *grins*

Melly -> force him to take off lar..apply early. haha. i really wanna go back to bali..dont you??? no parents supervision, just us us us!! wonderful night life, shopping, surfing, eating!! oooh...lets go lar!! save up for the trip!! =)

Dreamy dreams

I suspect I was a Malaysian in my previous life (read: pathetic)

Its always the same old scene of someone kidnapping me, alongside with a truckload of other kiddos.

Ok, maybe i should just stay away from Malaysia. Ominous sign?

Haha. Meanwhile, i wanna plan a trip to Bali during the June hols. Anyone wanna come along this time?? Melissa!! You've to come with me!! Ask Shawn!! *grins* Surfing!! Haha, no periods this time for either of us. =b

Happy Birthday, lil' sis

Confession: I want shopping 3 days in a row. Got 2 new tops from Roxy and Fontieer. The sales' making my hand itch for the wallet!! Oo, and that clutch bag from Aztec attracted me so much i just have to purchase it. Sometimes, the urge's too much to control.

Pretty!! *grins*

You just have to agree not all items on sales're last season's. Some are the 'latest' or even 'new arrivals'. So i reckon not all sales are bad sales? But i dont like people who behave like mad shoppers, grabbing everything on shelves. Embarrassment.

Darn. I should be saving. Why am i spending (again)?! O_o

Long day at school. But weekend's here. Other than Surf&Sweat this Sunday, i guess i have to dedicate remaining time to studies. Can't believe another mock exam's coming up.

New computer coming in tmr!! *skips ard*

Did i mention yesterday was another good afternoon spent with Cheryl and dirtyboy? How wonderful, my favourite babe and guy meeting up for lunch. I feel blissful.. =)

Shit!! It better not happen.. *shakes fearfully*